For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who has been similarly tested in every way, yet without sin. So let us confidently approach the throne of grace to receive mercy and to find grace for timely help. (bold print mine)
. . . Those who are well do not need a physician, but the sick do. I did not come to call the religious, but sinners.
These are perfect (of course!) readings for this season, nearly three weeks into a brand new year. Almost three weeks after promises and resolutions were made and most, I suspect, like I, are struggling to say true.
This year, at least, I know what I have not known before (at least not known it "in my bones"), it is not about will power. It is all about acknowledging my human weakness --my sin -- and availing myself of the abundant grace that is within reach and freely flowing. It is truly about washing myself in the stream of living water, the font of grace, that is always right here where I am. It is, in fact, "the river of life-giving water, sparkling like crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb."
It is available, flowing freely, the living water of God's grace and forgiveness. At any moment in time, I can avail myself of it, splash in it, drink it in, immerse myself, bathe in it. The question then remains, "What am I waiting for?"